words beyond words

“It’s important to tell the people you love how much you love them while they can hear you.”

so, to everyone that has come and permanently stay in my life, i do love you. to those who just singgah in my life fr a while, i love you the same. each and everyone of you made an impact on my life. ta kira lah kecik ke besar ke, but you made me who i am today. 


i think, the universe is nt fair. when we actually feel okay and fine and happy and cheerful, they came and threw us a curve ball. like, there it goes again. that heavy feeling in your chest when you don’t feel any desire to speak or move. all you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting. you attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can’t seem to connect to anyone or anything. and, you keep on waiting to be un-broken again. but, the cycle goes on. face it, you can never be happy for the rest of yr life. happiness is temporary. screw you universe.


sometimes, you feel happy, but the things that made you happy is  also the thing that made you sad,sometimes. so if you have a choice to pick one, what will you choose? can you live without the happiness? or can you live with sadness? which one do you think, you'll choose? because fr me, i choose happiness. i cant live without happiness, but i think i can try to live with sadness. hahahah yela kott, entah la (; i am rambling, i know. but,im bored wit the cutflower thingy. so yeahh, i will just keep on rambling.


friendship and relationship are just the same. you have to know to balance it, because if you dont, you'll lose either one of it,or worse, both. you just have to try, and keep on trying. you are a person, and a person will make mistakeS, so, make misakes and learn from it. and remember this. you are good enough, dont let your mind tricked you into telling you that you are not good enough. everyone will feel this,somehow. even me. bu you'll know it, if you have done your best. you'll know it when you have struggle to save everything you had. and guess what? you've done enough. there will always be a feeling that whatever you do is never enough, you're nt good enough to anyone. screw that feeling. you have to believe in yrself to actually let others to believe in you. YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH. bcs one thing you have to accept, you cant satisfy everyone. you cant. people have different perspectives, different ways of thinking, different ways of being satisfied. so no, you just cant. you just can try and try and try until there's no more room fr trying. and, not everyone can satisfy you. deal with that.


i know there are some things you can’t change. i know there are some situations where apologies hold no bearings. i know that twists of fate bring people together, and sometimes “everything happens for a reason” can tear them apart. secretly, deep inside, we’re all train wrecks which were either fixed piece by piece or just hidden under a mountain of junk. so, fight!  for yourself.  you deserves the happiness.  you deserve to be fixed. Don’t wait around for other people to be happy for you. Any happiness you get, you’ve got to make yourself.

okay, i am done rambling for today. phew! K.